marvelous!

im in love and still so fuckin jealous! I H-A-T-E H-E-R!!!

welcome to cracow. im movin in October. University. Engeenering:)

just come here and kiss me you fucking asshole!

i need U, T. NOW KURWA!!!

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im so fuckin scared. but the decision has been already made. help!

there was a boy and there was a girl.

im sorry to my mind but i must write sth in Polish. Its the fragment from the book by Coelho ''The Alchemist".

"...kiedy się to poczuje całym sobą, łatwo zrozumieć, że zawsze na świecie ktoś na kogoś czeka, czy to na dalekiej pustyni, czy w samym sercu gwarnego mista. I gdy w końcu skrzyżują się drogi tych dwojga i spotkają się ich spojrzenia, wtedy znika cała przeszłość i cała przyszłość. Liczy się tylko ta chwila i owa niewiarygodna pewność, że wszystko pod niebieskim sklepieniem zostało zapisane jedną Ręką. A Ręka ta obdarza miłością i stwarza bliską duszę dla każdego śmiertelnika, który w słonecznym świetle krząta się niestrudzenie, wypoczywa i szuka swego skarbu. Bo jeśliby tak nie było, to marzenia całego ludzkiego rodzaju nie miałyby najmniejszego sensu."

I♥Warsaw. Its definately MY city, my home.

From Warsaw with love. XoXo.

I hate this jive ass Czapla, a lack of style and class.

I love my bf, my little boy.

XoXo.

im scared

its very difficult to be with someone. i want to control him but i know that it can destroy everything. so i let him go to the disco alone. its painful for me when i sit at home, however one time i would need to go somewhere alone. if he wanna waste me, he's able to and i cant do anything about it.

i've decided to screw with him. im scared about it, im still seeing his ex -M. its so ... terrifying!!! the worst thought is that i must be BETTER in the bed. and im able to do everything to reach this aim! EVERYTHING!!! im better, i must believe this statement.

rżnięciepieprzeniebzykanieruchaniejebanie

wraiths of past.

I cant cope with my feelings. Last Saturday when i was drinking beer with M at his house, my friend called me. And he said: "T wants to meet u". Thats all. These words change my view to my relationship with M. His ex-girlfriend is ugly. Im selfish, i know, but im much better. I go to better school, i wear more fashionable clothes, im more intelligent, and finally im more pretty. And in adiotion, T. He thinks about me! its... unbelieveable! i am considering if its not betta to leave M for one moment with T. His fame, money, naughty smile makes me excited. Im between two things which i desire: constant relationship with love and exciting adventure with passion, pain, unexpecting turns... The choice is difficult. However, if i play it out properly, i will have both this things. Iwill betray M, but i will gain passion.

I want to be bad girl.

love games

i have nothing to say. its him. my sweetheart.
XoXo

season of love

its all memory in the sun or its all in the darkness

maybe its all around to see if we try

and maybe its been inside of me all this time

crazy with it crazier without

never certain never full of doubt

now you feel it now you dont

do you know what you're feelin?

where did it come from? and where does it go?

if it were right in front of me would i know?

LOVE with mon petit garcon

xoxo

wonderland.

Finally! im thrilled. i am with him. even it hasnt been told i know it. Snow is thawing, the winter is finishing and my coldness is disappearing too. its so cute. he told me that he will never penalize me. i dont know if i should believe. i am very inhibited about it.

dancin with fairy tales

last night i met someone. and this boy helps me to forget about T despite he knows nothing about him.

M is so cute and handsome. yee i like him. i want to know him betta. its possible that i will have a boyfriend. for me its historical turn. u can laugh but its true. since Kamyk i havent had a boyfriend so its very long and i need someone.

apprends-moi ce que tu desires en douce phrases, baises sucres!

tell me how to win ur heart.

i like this pic, it s so ... clear. yes, 'clear' is a good word.

tonight - party! oh. im so glad.
i hasnt written him. im not able to. fuk! maybe is he just illusion? now i dont know anything, im not sure anything.

so lets learn!:) its the best idea whenever.

babe! its wild world. so take it easy

i beam with sex!
i desire a cock. a special cock

im so selfish and just bad. i love sins.

bang bang bang!

after prom.

Anka took me Francois. But i was (maybe i am still) very pissed about it.

Today is valenitines day. i truly hate it. FB said me the truth: my lover of a day is T. Oh im sorry hes lover of my life, or at least of the part of my life.

i promise i will write to him. and i must do it. but im so fuckin scared...:(

changes are necessary. absolutely!

two kids.

two kids wanna play. but the bad world doesnt allow them.

some conditions dont allow me to be with him. i dont know them. i cant change them. so i just live my life, my fuckin shitty life.

feel me now!

the funeral is on thursday.

the prom is on saturday.

the valentines day is on sunday.

It all doesnt work together

it happened

Now its done. T's dad died today in the morning. Today is my Name Day. What does it mean? Why has it happened exactly today?

...

Im wonderin what T feels. I dont know why he wrote about engines bikes etc on fb. He SHOULD be sad. Why cant he admit that its so hard for him?! Because it must be. I never believe that he doesnt care. He has feelings and i know he just pretends.
i wish i could be there with him.

coffin, cemetery, death, sadness, tears, flowers, condolences.

and tomorrow life will begin, anew. and anyone wont remember about the former speedway rider, Rob...

'lets hurry up to love people. they leave us so fast!'

non. peut etre. Oui mon petit garcon!

'i know u want me, u know i want cha!'

miss him? maybe. i dont know.

exams. im scared about maths sin, cos, tg, ctg. Fuck!

The prom is just 2 weeks away. I have a dress but its rather casual so i need fur but there isnt here. Yesterday i bought 4 pairs of shoes in 1 week.:) im lovin it!

givin up would be the best solution

My gosh! last year finished terrible (mr onion yuck!) and this year has started even worse (three times at three different places!).

oh fuck it like would say it Chris from Skins. ill slim soon. ill buy new boots soon;). i know, i betray myself saying myself that everything is so nice, beautiful. my life sucks. but the most important is the positive thinking.

i am used to broaching about T. its just my negative habit. Maybe... i hope so.